Tuesday, June 4, 2013

It's A....

GIRL!

We could not be more thrilled! We have been praying for a baby girl for 3 years now! Sometimes I am still in shock, I just cannot believe it! She is due September 13th, and I could not be more excited!!!

The ultrasound was amazing.  Seeing our daughter for the first time-there just aren't words to describe it.  She is healthy and growing and very very active! That day was the most bittersweet day I have ever experienced in my life.  I was so over the moon, but at the same time it was hard to see our birthmom, A's, heart break.  She is just so amazing.  The first thing she said when we found out we're having a girl was, "Your dad is going to be so excited."  While she is sad she is still so excited for us.  Talk about love.  She loves this little girl so much, and loves us so much too.  She is giving me a family and I don't know if I will ever be able to thank her enough! 

Since then we went to lunch with A and our counselor from Nightlight.  It was really good, moving forward with openness agreements and talking about hospital time.  A asked us to be there when our baby girl is born, so that meant the world to us.

Today her & I went and got pedicures.  It was SO fun! I am serious, if we were to meet under any circumstances, we would totally be friends.  Makes our developing relationship that much easier.  After our pedis were done we sat there and talked mom to mom for almost an hour.  It was so great.  No one directing our conversation plus we know each other well enough to let our guards down.  I told her that as excited as I am, I still get nervous.  I feel like my whole world is in her hands...well her belly actually... :) She reassured me that she is not changing her mind.  She knows that this is going to be hard, it already is, but she is so positive that she is making the right choice.  She THANKED me for everything and expressed what a blessing Michael and I are to her.  I thought she was crazy.  SHE is the blessing! I felt silly when I realized she was reassuring me, so I was quick to turn it around and be sure I am reassuring her!  Such a beautiful relationship.  We talked about everything under the sun, nothing was off limits for us today.

I don't really want to go into too much more than that.  I really appreciate that while many of you are curious, you still respect our privacy.  I am blessed with parents, siblings, friends, etc who offer support but yet still realize this is our child.  I know adoption is new to so many of you, (including us!) and lots of people have lots of questions.  Most of them, I am fine answering.  I am so excited about all of this and love to share as much of our story as I am comfortable with.  But, there are things that are just off limits for us to share.  Simply because, they are not relevant.  All that matters is our daughters beautiful little story, and we are happy to share that. 

Thanks for the love!!!
Sara, Mike & our Baby Girl :)