Sunday, March 31, 2013

Happy Easter!

Well, Baby Matzke is getting spoiled already, and we don't even know who they are or when they will be with us! Here are the goodies he/she got today! :

There's not a whole lot to update at this point.  Everything except the dang CBI is done.  Michael called them last week and they said they had just finished with background checks that were recieved in October.  Ours were recieved by them in November, so hopefully it won't be to much longer.  We turned our profile books into NightLight last week.  Since the CBI is so backed up, they asked us to get a clearance from our local PD, just so they can start showing our portfolio to potential birthmoms.  I can't believe that soon, birth families will start having the opportunity to get information about us.  I am excited but nervous at the same time.  I know we could potentially be waiting for years (well, they said 18 months is about the longest wait they've ever had with an adoptive family), but I just hope it happens soon!

We've gotten several baby bottles filled with change returned to us ALREADY! THANKS!! It is adding up so quickly.  We are never sure if people want the bottles back after they have been filled to continue collecting change, so if you do please let us know.

We are starting to plan our adoption-palozza.  It will have dinner provided so we'll have a suggested donation to come.  Then we are hoping to have some raffle prizes and a silent auction.  We've had some talk of people potentionally offering both big ticket and smaller items, or even services.  If you or anyone you know would be willing to donate please let us know! We're planning it for the end of July, so when we get more info we will be getting the word out!

Happy Easter!

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Baby Bottle Fundraiser!

We found a great idea for our latest fundraiser! All you do is take a baby bottle and fill it with extra change.  Once it's full just return it to us, and we will put it towards our adoption!  If you would like one and/or if you know anyone who would be willing to help, please let us know.  A little bit from a lot of people can go a long way. 

First, I want to share a little background on these special bottles.  Several months ago, before we took our leap of faith, we met with two awesome couples we were connected with at church.  They both adopted their cute little girls and understood exactly how we felt, thought, etc.  They told us their stories, shared helpful information, but most importantly filled us with hope and surrounded us with support as we started our adoption journey.  Laura, Tonya, Pete & Paul-just so you know, we are SO thankful for you all.  Anyway, back to the bottle story.  One couple who adopted their daughter as an infant, was blessed with donated breast milk for their little miracle.  These bottles were collected from all over the place from wonderful 'Milk Mommies' who were willing to help in whatever way possible.  Well, she had kept these bottles wondering if she should just recycle them, but she really wanted to save them for something special.  That's where we came in!  It is just so amazing how God works, often times in ways I wouldn't have imagined.  So, if you decide to join in our baby bottle fundraiser, please add a thanksgiving prayer when you add change, for God just providing one thing after another!

Baby bottles ready to be filled:

Here's what the poem says, "
Matzke Adoption Money

Please add your quarters, pennies, nickels or dimes

Save them up for a couple months’ time.

When your baby bottle’s full,

You are helping us to meet our goal!

Thanks for the support!

Love, Mike & Sara

One last thought.  It is amazing how through this journey, the strength of my faith has multiplied.  I literally understand what it means to see God move mountains in my life.  This last week, there has been a couple Bible verses in one of my favorite songs, 'The Proof of Your Love' by King & Country, that has just completely stuck with me.  I know all of these wonderful things that Jesus is doing, and I am just so filled with love.
 (Bible Verse: 1 Corinthians 13: 1-3)
'If I can speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy
But I don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate
If I speak God's word with power, revealing all His mysteries
And making everything as plain as day
And if I say to a mountain jump and it jumps
But I don't love, I'm nothing
If i give all I own to the poor
Or if I even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr
But I don't have love, I've gotten nowhere
So, no matter what we say, no matter what we believe, no matter what we do
We're bankrupt without love'

I love Him, my husband, our family and friends and everyone that has rallied around us just to get this far.  So, thank you & I love you.

So-if you want a bottle, just comment, call or send me a message and we will get it to you!


Friday, March 8, 2013

Waiting, Crop Night, Poem-that I didn't write!

The crop night was GREAT! Thank you SO much Sandi, Kim & everyone who came! I had a great time, made some super cute things for the nursery/shower, and left with a bunch of hand made thank you cards.  The timing was perfect too, since our $5,000 that we have been saving for will be due shortly!

Me, Sandi & Kim giving a little talk about our crop night funraiser! If you are into scrapbooking, check our their website:

Dorky I know...but my mom and I were making decorations for the shower!

Wall hanging I painted and made for the nursery! Eventually it'll have their name in the star! Sorry it's sideways...I don't know how to fix it ;)

We are hoping to have a big 'adoption-palozza' party for a fundraiser this summer.  It will be a suggested donation for dinner, party & we'll also have a silent auction.  We already have the bbq meat donated! If anyone has any suggestions or connections for silent auction items, drink donations,  how to go about setting this up, or is willing/wants to help, please let us know! Our house and backyard is too small..hint hint! ;)

My in-laws found this neat poem on adoption and passed it along, it's from the Dear Abby section of the newspaper..

"Once there were two women, who never knew each other.
One you do not remember, the other you call mother.
Two different lives, shaped to make yours one.
One became your guiding star,
The other became your sun.
The first gave you life, and the second taught you to live it.
The first gave you a need for love, and the second was there to give it.
One gave you nationality, the other gave you a name.
One gave you a seed of talent,
The other gave you aim.
One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.
One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears.
One gave you up-it was all she could do.
The other prayed for a child, and God led her straight to you.
And now you ask me, through your tears,
The age-old question through the years:
Heredity or environment, which are you the product of?
Neither, my darling-neither,
Just two different kinds of love."

Ok, so it's a little corny and I'm not crazy about all of the wording but overall I really like it!  I hope our future baby knows the love their birth mom has for them.  Michael and I were discussing how our mind set on openness has done a 180 since starting all of this.  I used to have almost a fear of our  (hopefully soon to be) child's birth mom, and now I already respect her (even though I don't know YET who she is).  All I know that whoever she is and whenever I get the privelege of meeting her and my baby, I will forever admire her and be so grateful.  I just am hoping God brings us together sooner rather than later...

Well, 5 hours later we almost have our birth parent portfolio done! We sent it off to our birth mom counselor to get some feedback before we order them all.  We have only a few little loose ends to tie up before we are 'avaliable.'  I was hoping to have this all done by this week, but thanks to the CBI and all their back-ups we are still waiting.  I know it will all work out soon though.

Besides that, things have just been moving along.  This may sound crazy, but reaching the end of the 'work' part of all of this has been bittersweet, and harder than I had anticipated.  Everything that I had control over, is done.  That is a strange feeling to know that now I just have to sit back and wait for God's timing.  I know that all along everything that we have gotten done has been because He has opened so many doors, but it is hard for me to wait.  REALLY hard.  Especially for something so huge.  Anyone who has known me longer than a month can back me up when I say I have a hard time waiting.  My social worker, birth mom counselor, everyone at the agency had prepared us for this but it's always tougher when it comes.  They said that as soon as you get your final check mark on your 'adpotion to-do' list checked off, it's not easy to wait.  Suddenly, I have nothing baby related to keep me busy and I am reminded that all I have left right now for my baby is a pile of completed paper work and an empty bedroom.

I am so thankful that our baby shower is coming up in just less than a month! It gives me something to look forward to and to keep my mind busy while we wait. The other major thing that I know without a doubt that God had His hand in is our upcoming trip to visit family.  Crazy how God always knows just how much my little heart can handle, and right now nothing sounds better than spending time with my husband and grandparents and soaking up (hopefully!) some Cali sunshine.

I assume for the next few months there won't be a lot to update on once we get our completed home study, but I will still do my best to put my thoughts and emotions into words on here and get you all informed on how we're holding up!

Thanks for all the prayers, love, support (finanically AND emotionally) that you all have offered.

Friday, March 1, 2013

Birthmom Counselor Meeting

We met with the birth mom counselor and Nightlight yesterday for about 2 hours.  I am constantly impressed and thrilled with each person we meet there, they are all so wonderful.  We learned a whole bunch of really helpful information.  Some was reassuring, some was a little intimidating.

We got a bunch more information about the time between when we are matched, the baby is born, and the finalization.  First, we have another few forms to fill out about our desired child (which is any race, and up to 6 months old).  We fill out another one about the birth mom and what sort of things we are looking for.  If Renee (the birth mom counselor) thinks we would be a good fit, she will show her our birth parent letter and our portfolio.  If it clicks, then we met.  AFTER we met the decision is made if we are a match. If so, we get to know each other, make plans, talk about our level of open-ness, etc.  The kind of nerve racking part, is we learned more information about the placement process.  The state of Colorado is apparently the strictest when it comes to adoption.  First of all, the birth mom doesn't relinquish her parental rights until the baby is four days old.  Assuming that goes smoothly and the baby is healthy, they'll leave the hospital with us.  Then, the paper work is sent to a judge to sign off on.  This takes 2-4 weeks. Ultimately, while waiting for the judge to process the paperwork, even though the baby is with us, the birth mom has the right to change her mind.  Although this makes me nervous, Renee reassured us that even though this DOES happen, it is quite RARE.  We know that ultimately it is all in God's hands, and we will just have to remind ourselves that during that time.  Really, up until the judge signs the paper, the birth mom is calling all the shots.  At first, to be honest,that sort of bothered me.  Then Renee said that during this time, we need to be selfless and realize that this woman deeply loves her child.  We may need to sacrifice our own plans and ideas for a short while, but then we end up with forever with our little pumpkin.  :) 

We also met with Beth to review our home study! The hang up though is still with the CBI.  They haven't gotten our official finger prints and background checks returned to Nightlight yet.  So, all of our work with the Home Study is complete.  Once Beth gets the final say so, she'll just plug in the dates and we'll be officially done.

That was all the big news! Now I'm off to our 'Crop Night' fundraiser! You can still come join us tonight or tomorrow and just pay there!

Thanks for all the prayers and support, as always.